i am beautiful

i blink back the tears
with a shaky hand i pick up the lipstick
forcing myself to look in the mirror
i see her

shes ugly
tangled matted down hair
bloody chapped lips
zombie grey eyes
cracked rough skin

i used to be beautiful
until he
beat me
now im here
in this tiny room

i bite my lip
the cracked mirror showed a tearsteaming down the girls face
i shut my eyes
tight
so no one can be let in
they cant get into my mind
thats the only place im free
sane

i feel my shaking hand rise
i feel the soft brush of the slanted
tip of the lipstick zigzaging on my face

over my eye
under my nose
through my lips
cross my brow

i open my eyes

i cry uncontrollably
shreik a murderus cry from my frail body
slam my fists into the mirror
whatch the shards fall to the floor

i am beautiful.